The Gift in Everything
*An end and a beginning*
A stranger named Nicole captured this photo of me (and Aseena) this morning as I was coming out of the ocean for a needed early swim!
It’s been a roller-coaster of a week since just over 10 days ago when we were held up in it home, tied up and told to be quiet while our home was ransacked.
I never thought something like that would happen to me. Honestly, I have moments were I still can’t believe it did.
When it was happening I was mostly calm but I did have moments of deep fear. Is this it? Am I going to die? Am I going to be hurt really badly? Will I be raped? All these thoughts… but as a whole, I was calm and spoke to the men very calmly. It was like you couldn’t be / think of anything else but be totally present in the moment.
They left us unharmed and for that I am truly grateful. Possessions are just things and can be replaced.
We were lucky… but I also know that we were protected. I was reminded last night as well that God / Spirit really was with us. That I can trust in that.
I also know that my commitment to my spiritual growth and all the work I have done over the last 20 years really supported me in that moment to be calm, to not react and to not panic.
I want to share something quite amazing.. Earlier that day I was feeling really down. I had been feeling pretty down the whole week, and it seemed to be consuming me. That morning when I took Aseena to the beachfront for a walk, I had the thought ‘what if today was my last day’ ? Yes.Really! I have had that thought before, but not for a while. Interesting how things happen… and interesting how I had had that thought that day.
Trauma – I am still healing and I trust in time I will heal fully. My emotions have been all over the place this week but I’ve been advised it’s all normal and part of me processing what has happened.
It’s better to access it all than to suppress it, which I did in my youth and it was not the answer!
Everything has a gift in it! I know this.
As I reflect on it more and more .. and more and more, it seems to have catalyzed something in me which is ready to step up and take my life, my work, my worth and my purpose more seriously.
I am also more comfortable letting go of what no longer serves me.
In this last week, I found a new home, I committed to my businesses on new levels and I’ve been moving past my past limiting beliefs that have been playing out. I am not allowing those voices to take over. This is big for me!
It feels like I have a new level of courage too!
I’m still very much Healing. I can’t say I am okay or over it. We are all affected by it. I choose however to see the gift in it. And to be immensely grateful that I am alive and healthy. And to take one step at a time.
I am looking forward to my new chapter and my new home. I intend to love myself more, to honour my life, my body and what I have been giving in this life to work with.
I also was to honour all women for women’s month! 👩❤️👩 as a tribe, we are strong!
Much love ❤️
Love that attitude Leigh! Love the genuine feeling in your words. Thanks for courageously sharing!